I didn't know I could be this close to a person
really this close
and share laughter
breathe in each other.
breathe on each other, onto,
and then snort some more laughter
into the universe. I didn't expect
to be giggling together but
he surprises me constantly, I am delighted in his presence
because his wit and thinking are not mine – but as light as mine –
and so I light up with him. I didn't know what it was like
to really like somebody who wasn't me…I was never good at that anyway…
he couldn't handle me 'trying to figure things out'
instead of sampling a 'yes' for once, and just trusting,
letting go and falling . into .
didn't you enjoy it? Didn't we start with the fun
and laughter and breathing and the universe?
even in God, even in nature, even in pain –
laughter isn't escape – it lets the used out of you.
it lets go of the old so you can find and fill with fresh.
so breathe in, I am with you.
touch me, I'll hold you..
how didn't I know we could be